interesting

    10 10 with year 2020,  interesting i thinlk, it was 10 october

crazy thoughts

my crazy thoughtsn
I like to play with words
everything has pros and cons.  pro is good and con which is bad,
does that mean congress is opposite of progress?
so if this is true? then what?
the question i have is that is it bad?
but i have come to a crazy conclusion, that it is bad tour be good in long run, may be my circumstances
i had dental surghhery last week, where the hospital removed 2 wisdom tooths, i do not need as i have no wisdom, atleast, according to me.

i am thiking  which proves according to me is that i have a brain,   i am thinking purpose of my life as to why am i still aliive?  What is the purpose of my life.  i am tired of being ATLAS, taking burden of life.
what am i doing in this unthankfull world?
just live as it is, because you wyrd has not put end of life yet, so live, as it is.  no option.
according to me, my ex is at home, she is cleaning, but she forgot to throw one thing, that is ME, I deserved to be thrown out.


stupid joke which i created.NCIS N.C.I.S (Naval Crime Investstigative Services) was and still is my favorite show, but i say when acommenting, NCIS which for me is No Comment It's Stupidity.

my request

I am writing after a very very long time
I just saw on CBC documentary  POV, what a documentary, it showed about Vancouver first responder, or PARA-MEDICS, more than half or allow the documentary are suffering and are having PTSD, something should be done.  I am not a doctor,  but a disabled man in his late   40's wish to help the way I can, may be talk.
just please respond or spread the word.
I am in Ottawa, CANADA.
thank you.

dream

MY DREAM: 11^th June 2017.

Last night i had a dream, meaing of which i am trying to think what it meanss, i dreamt i was in train standdinng in door, i had no sign off my disabilitgtgy. The train stoppedd on a station, i had urge to drink tea. But i stood standing in the door. But before that, it was early in the morning as it was mist around. The train started and i was curiuos to know the stop name. To my surprise the stop name was RAKHAA what does it mean? To my understanding. It means to conserve. conserve, conserve what? Conserve your health? I have lost my health. Wealth which I do not have, then what to conserve. Maybe, the dream meant something, what which I have to look and see.

why?

 why is it that am I suffering?   Is it something I did?  In current life or? past lives?

what is LIFE?

this question of what is LIFE has haunted me since last 2-3 years.   I have been reading books and watching movies.
after some time I think, according to my understanding I think I know  what does LIFE stands for.
LIFE for me is
L=Love
I=Is
F=For
E=Ever.
we will perish. if we remove Love/

empty feeling

end of another school year, partly successful,  but am i going to seat quite? no.  i am going to study hard or harder to be successful.  let us see.