now empty as alwaya

today is my daughter's birthday, she was good today.  she left for India for 2 weeks. I will be alone which I am always.  But what can I do?  just live as it is.

why?

why is it that people do not trust?  it is a pain, but ....

it continues

my life is continuing as before.  My luv has left me, although I think she still loves me, mark my word I think.  may be I always and always this positive.  The bad thing is I cannot think negative.

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nothing special today, went for a meeting, sat for  3 hours doing nothing.  instead of at home doing nothing, spend time doing nothing somewhere else.
what a day of doing nothing.  well last 3 weeks of doing nothing, then there will be something ...  what?

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why do i have to take blame for all my or someone else's misdeeds?  well the bad thing is i keep hiding from all my feelings.  hey, i also do mistakes, i am a human too, i am not god.  but still i do mistakes. 
what do you call the dork who is writing this blog?
considerate fool, Why? because he is a fool who consider other before other.
what can we say?

when 400 is more than 1500

the title might look crazy, but this is truth about my existing life. i am physically disabled and as my ex-wife  who used to love me before my disability now says that i am mentally disabled too.  so the   question comes to my non-existing mind that why am i alive? to listen to others?
if that is my fate, I have to be alive till I  repay my misdeeds.